| the God of love.
find yourself completely wrapped in the things that matter less than absolute wondrous love of God. |
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| disconnected?
disconsorted?
hmmm i rely on Christ, but I have always trusted my parents maybe just as much and sometimes more.
maybe that isnt the right thing, but its easy when you have felt there constant love and trustworthiness.
what if...
one day youve thought one thing about the people youve loved forever until absolutely youre afore beliefs are completly destructed.
i know nothing about my parents.
they have this whole entire livelihood that i had no part in at all.
i feel completly disconnected.
and torturously alone.
there is absolutly nothing i could do except ...
accept my terms and go on.
maybe leaving. makes it easier to leave people that i suddenly feel are strangers.
gah...
my trust issues have sky-rocketed to completly higher level...
right now i am relying strongly on my friends, but i am intently waiting for them to hurt me badly
because they still seem too good to be true...
hmmm relying on Christ is what I have, but I am not going to say thats easy because it's never easy to find the only person I have to trust is Him...there's NOBODY else?
NOBODY!?!
and that scares me.
even if its true.
its such a hard fact to face.
im done writing.
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| hey look--- mary made a new post on xanga: yippee. so since my last post. ive grown. ive been challenged. ive matured. ive strengthened & trevailed. ive pressed forward. & ive moved along im happy thus the end is near to this whole xanga affair. so long my good friends. myspace blog is more addicting && a little more loving than this. goodbye xanga. it's been fun while it lasted. -mary |
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| i dont hate anyone, i am not mad at anyone, and i have absolutly NO DRAMA...to anyone has felt that I was mad at you or havent talked to you in a while, it is probably because I dont want to have any confrontation or drama in my life...
I acctually have like 2 weeks till i am OFF to the Ukraine...and well...i think it's just unnecessary
someone very wise said this once: "Go where your celebrated" in other words if I think you're going to bring me down or spirit down in anyway ...goodbye you are out of my life for good...
SO yah, but to make this not such a direct but indirect blog...4 days till Camp, i LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE it...and i know I am going to be having TONS of fun...wootwoot!!
okay well Love you all
get back to ya when i get back to ya...
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